'Laying next to him is harder now that I met you, Xavier, I love you, not him! When can I see you again?' I stare at the burner phone Xavier bought me. It's an old iPhone that I've put music on so James doesn't think anything about it.
'Babe you know that I can't see you right now. James will know something is up if I stop by so soon. I was just there two days ago. Just keep lying next to him. He loves you. He needs you right now. We'll be together before you know it.' James loves me? NO he doesn't I'm just his poor wife, he is sleeping with Justice. I don't love him. I love you, come pick me up.'
'Sarah, you know I can't do that, Please understand. Kyle needs me, he is sick.'
'I could take care of him. He needs a woman's care, just like his dad' I smile looking at the iPhone.
'Yes he does but you can't leave. You know this.'
Damn it. I lock the phone.
"Sarah, why are you in here?" James asks looking past me.
"Just working on my book. I'll be in bed when I'm done."
"OK. I love you."
"Love you too," I say as sweetly as I can muster. I wonder if Xavier would take me away from James if I was pregnant. I unlock my phone. 'Xavier, I can only stay here for a little bit longer than I need out of here, goodnight' I turn the phone off and put it in the desk drawer. I go and lay next to James. He rolls over and starts kissing my neck. I close my eyes pretending it was Xavier kissing my neck. I moan and his hand slips under my underwear and slides into my pussy. "Damn baby girl you are wet. I want to make love to you." I know if I push him off now he will know something is up so I just nod. He pulls my underwear off and his pants. He kisses my lips and I force a moan. He doesn't stop kissing me until he slides inside me. I gently push him back.
"I'm ovulating," I say, panicking. He quickly pulls out and sits back on his heels. Looking at me with disbelief. "I don't want to get pregnant. Not with the wine tasting in three months, you know how much that means to your mom." He nods and climbs off the bed.
"Here of late, it seems like you don't want to be with me." He slams the bathroom door. I head out of the room to my office and text Xavier. 'I'm heading to my mother's old place. Can you meet me there tomorrow?' I hit send and turn it back off and head back to the room. He hasn't come out of the bathroom yet. His phone starts ringing and I walk over to see if it's his mother. The caller ID says its Justice. I grab a notepad and write down the number. I hear the toilet flush and I run over to my side of the bed. "What's up?" He says seeing me sitting on the bed.
"Are you happy with me?" He looks shocked but nods.
"Why would you ask something like that?" He's lying. I shrug.
"Just wondering. I have a new chapter idea. I need to go get it written." I get up and walk slowly out of the room. Once I was out of eyesight. I hear him pick up his phone.
"Justice, baby why are you calling me so late...You're pregnant? Are you sure?...You know I'll be leaving her soon. You're having my baby and she doesn't want to." I slowly walk back to my office. I fall asleep on my couch in my office.
